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...just another girl who costarred?
they're gonna wrap you up in cornsilk.
they're gonna cry like you were spilled milk.
-rhett miller

2004-04-2812:26 a.m.

i got into school. i am so excited!

having said that there is a lot on the plate...my old college job gave me a "most fingers in the most pies" award at the end of the year party. how is that for a mixed metaphor? there is always a lot going on in my life and i think it's due to a mix of my need to be somebody to many people and my own selfish needs to explore.

my family is going through a lot right now with my brother being sick but he is fighting as always. he is an amazing man and inspiration to all who think life is to be endured and not lived. i think we are all somewhat relieved that he is coming off of chemo for a now.

work is up in the air. i guess that's what happens when a little scrappy company gets eaten by an empire. i may be the fat they cut. at least i have school to look forward to, and a great network.

i moved (again) to the b. sleeping with my cat is nice. my mom says i can't move out again until i'm married. eep!

i can't believe i moved around so much. what a frickin pain in the arse. i almost think my mom's idea is a good one. although that could be a really frickin long time.

i had writing group today at city blend on 16th and valencia. it's a yucatecan restaurant and cafe. i love their dulce de leche/madeline/coconut cookie things. but i had some empanadas del camarones that were pretty nice. i like how it seems like there is always a big family in there. my fellow writing partners confessed to finding my poetry online. luckily they were really impressed and i felt a huge pang of guilt. i've been offered to be published by former professors and colleagues and just never followed through. i stopped doing readings years ago. it's hard when everyone around you believes your good but you can't convince yourself. or maybe i DO think i'm good, i'm just really fucking lazy...either way...i have a short story boiling up right now and that is my main writing project.

run, don't walk to the bookstore and BUY a MARY GAITSKILL book.

bout to give this girl a shout

>>back in the day>>
>>i'm not a kid anymore>>
>>but somedays i sit & wish i was a kid again>>

"i don't want the world, i just want your half..."
-they might be giants

>>>leave your mark on me / [?uestbook]>>>

* me love you long time *
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