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...just another girl who costarred?
they're gonna wrap you up in cornsilk.
they're gonna cry like you were spilled milk.
-rhett miller

2003-10-248:36 a.m.

So per Jeremy's request, I'm going to update this thing, regardless of the inevitable self-censorship that will take place. I will start an anonymous blog to bear my soul in and you'll have to just find it and guess that it's mine.

Last night, after confessing something wrong I did, we had to go pick up my boyfriend's auntie & grandma. His sweet, loquacious, energetic grandma, innocently asked how I was doing and tagged on the name of his ex-fiancee to the end of the inquiry. Those kinds of things don't bother me. I think they were both more embarrassed than I was, I just thought it was funny and bound to happen sooner or later.

We asked one of our roommates to leave. I should say that Malaya took on most of the responsibility and that it was whack because we will all benefit from this roommate being gone but he took the responsibility for being the bad guy. It sucked. Rissa's moving in though and the original Sixdeuce will be in order. And I get to share a bathroom with a girl! That smells good! And BJ will get to stay in his room afterall! Yay.

So I've been doing student teaching at Balboa HS w/Ethnic Literature and it's been GREAT. I really enjoy it but the teacher is out today so I'm here in R's apt. working from "home." Later on though, he's going to help my agency kick another agency's ass at volleyball. Woohoo! And then we're going to Jason Villaverde's annual shindig to celebrate his birth. JV is my old bedroommate from Davis who I never saw bc he was always at his gf's. He loves Brian McKnight, drives a minivan and dresses all preppy but he is funny as HELL and I love him for the big dork he is. I always tease my roommate for having dated him. We used to doubledate when I was seeing his friend who was pretty wack to me. I was rebounding. He'd never had a gf. But our parents were from the same town in the Philippines so I thought it would be a good idea. Wrong...

Ah, wrong decisions...so many, so many. RR is the first thing that feels absolutely right in a long time. I am the luckiest girl in the world to have breakfast w/him in my chonis and vice versa. Well, he has his own...I hope he doesn't mind me writing all this. Eh.

When people love you through struggles, that's when you know they love you. Not when everything is just hunkydory.

I actually wrote a different entry and it got erased. I'm a little rusty on this Diaryland bit...the end of the year is coming and I'm getting nostalgic for the year in review already...so many things this year. RR, Popfest, Boston, my house, Hawaii, job changes, really really really good music, teaching, the end of the Rhett/Scarlet epic...damn.

bout to give this girl a shout

>>back in the day>>
>>i'm not a kid anymore>>
>>but somedays i sit & wish i was a kid again>>

"i don't want the world, i just want your half..."
-they might be giants

>>>leave your mark on me / [?uestbook]>>>

* me love you long time *
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